went town again wif joel on xmas eve to buy stuffs
squeezy there as usual
then went home and went cousin hse for mj till late nite
slpt at 5+ n woke up 11+ 12 on xmas..half dae gone!
went back to my home cos we(cousins all)
decided to come mi hse celebrate this time
n so with the mango logcake placed in my hse fridge on eve,
we played mj cards etc lar..lots of stuffs..
end up we each made a model aeroplane which liping da jie buy for us =)
aniway thats how xmas ended when every1 bid farewell n juz nice the clock hit 00:00
the nx big day would be new yr and then repeated again the events
i think i m startin to h8 xmas
its a day of hopes and joy
but for me there aint much hopes joy still a tiny winy bit ba
i wouldnt say its lonely cos i got my dearest cousins to celebrate wif
as well as a few of my frens
but i think the lonely would be for 18yrs xmas
no gf ... seems so normal usual..
hence if possible i wouldnt wanna be like this again
sometimes seein couples so close.
i felt some painorsadness n abitjealous
perhaps the time is not rite is an excuse
but when? i wonder
enuff of my xmas self-reflections cos
i had alreadi made my wish for this yr to dearest santa
if his technology is good he would have juz seen the wish/hope i made
ho ho ho
n thank u santa for making me sick this xmas..
it certainly aint worse enuff.. maybe i m too evil this yr =/
(which i think otherwise n the kind always get bullied)
Love
